Thursday, April 2, 2009

Slump

I'm in a slump.

Not a blogging slump.

A life slump.

For the last couple weeks, I just can't shake it.

I thought the weather getting warmer or the sun shining would help. And, though it does to some extent, it really doesn't.

I feel frustrated, annoyed and emotional most of my day.

My patience is thin to say the least.

I have cried each day.

Nothing drastic has changed in my life.

My husband loves me beyond words and I feel the same about him.

My kids are healthy, though I swear they have been whining incessantly and Austin seems to have learned how to completely tune me out.

I can see in Mark's face that he is worried about me.

I wake up each day with hope that it will be better.

I pray that it will be better.

I can't put my finger on the problem.

I hope it is just a phase and I will wake up tomorrow and feel foolish for writing this post.

12 comments:

Chelle said...

Sweetie, I'm sorry :(

I understand completely...it's as if you feel like something just isn't right and you can't figure out what that one thing is.

(((hugs))) and maybe you could go and do something for you...an hour or so out by yourself.

Caitlin Dee said...

Hey there---it could still totally be the weather. Even though it's April, it's not consistently warm and sunny yet (April showers bring May flowers)!

Can you do something you love each day? Like take a walk (weather permitting), read on the porch, enjoy a super good cup of coffee/or wine!, a date with your hubby....

I hope you're smiling soon!!! <3

mommaof4wife2r said...

isn't life that way? i think so...and sometimes to get it out, we hav eto say it out loud. you know, when we voice it, satan has no power over it anymore...you are stinking amazing and i know that you will be up again soon.. prayers...

Krystyn said...

I know that feeling, too! The ebbs and flows of life. That place is not fun at all. I'm pretty sure I've been there several times, too!

Keep praying and I'll keep praying for you!

Jenn said...

I'm sorry you are going through a rough patch, I think most moms get them on and off. Men go off to work and running doing whatever and don't realize just how draining it is to stay home with kids 24/7.

I have been going through it too, with the hubby losing his job and the new baby coming in July .....I feel like crying daily !

Just enjoy the kids and when they are driving you nuts try and think of the things they do that you love and make you smile.

When or if you can ever get them to nap nap yourself or take time to do what you enjoy with no little ones driving you crazy in those moments.

I'll be thinking of you !

Clare said...

i am hoping that tomorrow will be a brighter day and you can jump out of it... i can definitely relate!

Casey's trio said...

Sending hugs your way. I like the suggestion of getting out and doing something nice for yourself. Maybe a massage or a pedicure? Always makes me feel better!

The DeBolt Family said...

Maybe you need a day for you. Have Mark stay home with the kids and plan a day at a spa with a mani, pedi and massage. Sounds like you might need to be pampered. Or maybe you could have the kids stay with Mark's parents or someone else you trust overnight and you and Mark have a night and day to yourselves. Sometimes a little refresher is all you need. But if you feel worse and worse, keep an eye on it....we don't want you spiraling into a depression. Then who would I get all my wonderful recipes from? :) Hang in there dear and I will be praying for you.

Kristen said...

Hang in there friend. I think you are going through something totally normal. Hugs to you as you go through this time of your life.

Know I am praying for you...

HUGS!

The White House said...

I can totally relate, and I will pray for you. I am asking that the Lord will bless you and revive you with a new hope. I pray that your spirit is refreshed and that He would restore unto you the the joy of your salvation!

daningo said...

I will say a prayer for you. It is so hard when those times hit. Do you have a conservatory in your area? I always feel better when I get in the warmth and see and smell lots of plants. Take an afternoon, by yourself, and take in the warmth if you can.

Jennifer said...

I'm so sorry you are feeling this way-- I know the feeling first hand. I had a day like this last Monday and it's no fun. Luckily, I snapped out of it soon enough. I'll be praying for you!